The whole darn fam

The whole darn fam

Friday, February 24, 2012

The Story of One....

It was a cool late December morning...there was the post Christmas hustle and bustle surrounding an open air market...connected to a large strip mall. Shopkeepers setting up their wares, and sweeping in front of their stores, with the large straw brooms typical of China.

In the distance, a soft cry can be heard. At sounded more like a cat, so it was ignored by many. Then, it became more persistent...and as a woman looked closer..she saw it was coming from a bundle on the stairs leading to a large store. The woman picked up the bundle, and saw a baby was inside. A very sick looking baby. A boy...with a birth note..and a copy of a medical report.

She wasn't all that surprised, unfortunately. If a baby is sick...they most likely are left. Most Chinese living in this area do not have the funds to pay a hospital to care for a baby like this.

She did what she knew to do. Called the police...and this sweet, sickly, baby boy...feverish, and making a painful, pitiful cry..was brought to the orphanage. They immediately brought him to the he looked close to dying. Thankfully, this was one of the more well-funded orphanages, that could arrange for him to have medical care.

Dr.'s looked at his medical report that came with him...saying he had a cyst on his brain...but they noticed he was also in extreme distress and pain. His almond eyes shut, wincing, his sweet face in a painful grimace. They then discovered he had a stomach issue...his bowl had begun to collapse into itself. He needed surgery immediately...or he would die.

Surgery was performed..sloppily..but it was life saving. And he was sent to the orphanage.

The nannies there thought he was brain there was no rush to file paperwork for him to be adopted. It was predicted that he would live his days out there...and then be transferred to an institution later in life.

But this baby had different plans.

He not only defied any expectations...he exceeded them! He grew chubby and darling. His smile made his eyes disappear..and lit up any room he was in. He met every milestone...and then some!
He quickly became a favorite of the head nanny.

She loved him so..and brought him home with her some of the evenings...and made sure that he had that extra hug and kiss during the day. She cheered his first steps....and watched as he played...knowing that someone could love him as their own.

She made certain that adoption paperwork was filed for him. And then a camp came to the orphanage from the United States. Originally...this sweet boy was not on the list of kids that the Americans were coming to meet and get information on so they could be adopted. Most of the kids were older than him...he was just 3 years at this point.

But some last minute begging...had him added on...and boy did he charm the pants off of the American staff! He danced, he sang..he threw balls, and bounced a basketball like no ones business.

Yet...all of these descriptions of a seemingly healthy child...seemed to mean little to perspective his file listed him as having a "brain abnormality". Most of the children that were met on that trip..found a family through the agency that visited. But this darling chubby faced, adorable boy still waited. Not one family would take a chance with a "brain damaged" child.

He spent his days with many "brothers and sisters". Some of them had something different about them...some of them spent time on a room just with other kids that couldn't do much. None of them had a mom and dad. Sometimes his days were fine...and it wasn't so bad. Yet, sometimes he got hit...for no reason at all.

So he went out of his way to be extra good so that didn't happen. He became a leader in his class...and made sure all the kids were good so they didn't get in big trouble. All the kids loved him. But..because he was allowed to go home with the one nanny...he saw what a family was like. He knew that this wasn't a real family...although it was the only one he knew.

He knew love there. But he also knew he saw many of his friends treated far worse than he. Food withheld...being ignored. It made him so sad.

One day...when he was close to 5 years old, he learned that he had a Mama and Baba! A family chose him! He was so excited.....and showed the album of his family to all of his friends..he couldn't sleep at night he was so excited to meet them! He even got a birthday cake sent to him..with a card that played music for his 5th birthday! He smiled so wide for his pictures with his cake because he knew his very own parents would look at them.

The day finally arrived..they were here!!! He rode in the van to meet them..clutching his card...not knowing if he would ever see anything familiar to him again. He was a little nervous but mostly excited. The nannies told him that there was a very special family for him...that would love him so that sounded great to him.

He first saw his Mama--she was crying, but smiling...and grabbed him in a huge hug and smothered him with kisses...and he tried to show her his card...and say thank you. Then..he saw his Baba--oh had he waited for the day to have his very own father!! He ran right into his arms...and didn't want to let go of his strong and safe embrace! He also met his brother and sister...and they wanted to play with him right away...and gave him all sorts of balls, and toys to

He wanted them to like him, so he grabbed the bag of goodies his nannies packed for him, and handed all of them out to his family. He was so proud he had something to give.

Fast forward....10 weeks. He is home. He is cherished. He is amazingly smart. He is athletic. He is kind. He is giving, and loving like no one can believe.

He is a son.
He is a brother.
He is a nephew, a grandchild, a God-child, a friend, a student, a basketball player.
He is NOT an orphan.

And we got the news a few days ago that he should not be here. No...he should absolutely not be alive....or at very least not functioning as he is.

That "cyst" on his brain was actually a pre-natal stroke. Yes..that's right...he had a stroke in utero...and by most accounts should not have survived it...or thrived after it. He also had his stomach issue...which can be fatal even when treated immediately. It wasn't. He was abandoned at one month...not treated for it for almost 2 months.

He shouldn't have survived. quote a neurologist at Johns a "walking miracle". "A child with the stroke that happened to that part of his brain should have extreme weakness in his left side, and difficulty walking. He should have motor problems, and vision issues..even vision loss in the left eye. He should not be a basketball playing, soccer ball kicking child that is picking up English faster than any 5 year old I have ever seen".

He is a miracle.
He is OUR son.
And my God...what if we had fallen victim to the worry and stress that he "may" have all these issues instead of trusting that he was ours. And mind you...he would be loved NO less if he did have more needs than we had known. But we could have been so scared of the "what ifs" that we missed him.

Him. Our son...our PERFECT Shawn ShaHe. Who may need an eye surgery for a slight wandering of his left eye---the only need that can be attributed to his stroke. The ONLY need. He compensated for what part of his brain is affected. He will have no further issues...other than what we have seen...what's done is done. And God has granted this beautiful boy LIFE. A life that is already marked by by matter what he does or becomes.

Although at the breakfast table this morning he declared..."I gonna be a Doctor!"
And that he can be...if he wishes.

How many kids are still him?
Too many.
Too many that on "paper" seem unmanageable, needs far to great to handle.
TRUST me....a child is SO much more than what is written in a report.

They are beautiful little beings with needs FAR greater than what it states medically.
They NEED love.
They NEED to be cherished.
They NEED to feel worthy and important.
They NEED to believe that they are worth taking a chance on.

I was never going to share Shawn's diagnosis...I thought that it was his story to tell.
Yet---after I saw all the miracles that surrounded him....I realized that he could inspire SO many.

He can inspire people to take chances. To live POSITIVELY. To LOVE with every ounce of your being. To have FAITH.

He is my inspiration for so many reasons, and I believe that we are being graced by his gift of self to us. And we are so, humbly grateful.

And we cannot wait to see what God has in store for our miracle son.

***Beginning part of the story was embellished with one of the many scenarios that I dream happened with Shawn in his first years...mixed with facts that I have learned.


Rebecca said...

Wow, Amy! Thanks so much for sharing Shawn's story. I can't tell you how many times I looked at Shawn's picture while he was waiting for his family and wondered what his story was. He truly is a miracle! Can't wait to meet him!

Our Family said...

Thank you for sharing Shawn's story !!
He is a very inspirational child . You can see the joy he has in his eyes. What a gift !

Hugs from Baltimore !

Mommy said...

Chills and tears. Praise the Lord! I am so thankful you didn't allow the "what-if's" to stand in the way of His perfect plan. xoxoxo...


Brooke said...

What a testimony! Thanks for sharing! He is the sweetest, cutest, happiest boy and I pray his story inspires others to take a chance on a child who has a diagnosis that might come with some unknowns or sound scary on paper. They all need a family and what treasures those who do not get immediately chosen may be. Shawn is one of those treasures...that's for sure!

Rachel said...

That is an amazing story! Such a testimony he has! Thank you for sharing this...

Michele said...

we have a very similar story. My daughter's info sat on the shared list for well over 2 years. Her file too scary for many to consider. I had met her and had faith that whatever the issues were/are, we could handle it. She is home 2 months today and a total miracle. Not without her challenges, but not nearly as challenged as anticipated!!! I wish more people would consider these miraculous kids!! Shawn is precious!! Thanks for sharing his story with us!!

Mama said...

Beautiful! Thank you for sharing.

The Cloutiers said...

thanks for posting this! currently I know of a set of twin boys listed on the shared list that are listed w/ brain abnormalities.... I so hope a family reads your post and it inspires them to look further at those little guys. my own little boys have a need that many people find to scary too... albinism. but to us its not scary at all. people hear the term legally blind and think... too much to handle... when in reality its not that big a deal. my boys ride bikes, go to regular school, are starting to be able to read words.... so yes! they can see... just not exactly the way we do... what they see is more pixalized and they need things closer.. but w/ magnifying aides when they get to the older grades in school they'll do fine.... and for now in prek type books they are able to point out letters and pictures just by holding books a bit closer... all in all not a big deal.

thanks for sharing your beautiful family!

Chris said...

Amy, thank you for sharing. Privacy and secrecy aren't always the right answers.
While I understand that some kids w/ "brain abnormalities" have some big SN's. We should take a closer look and ask God what he has in mind...and then LEAP!
We are starting our next LEAP hopefully she will be home in 2012

Kevin and Michele said...

What a beautiful story! Thanks for sharing. No doubt the Lord has big things in store for him!!! (a BAAS family)

Karen said...

Beautiful testimony. I always say... adoption is a leap of faith. Thankfully you took the leap. Hugs and blessings, Karen R

Anonymous said...

Just beautiful! - Brought tears to my ears - I always feel that about Mitchell's story- that is it his to tell - but I can see how inspiring and maybe people are on the fence thinking some needs are unmanageable- that it really is beyond OK- thank you for sharing!

Kathy said...

Thank you for sharing Shawn's story. Even before I know all of his story your journey helped us to step out in faith to adopt a soon to be 5 yr old from China. We should travel in September.

Thank you for sharing.

Donna Moreland said...

Wonderful story of faith, hope and love. Praising God for your miracle.

Trish said...

Beautiful story, I loved it! Blessings, Trish

The Payne Family Blog said...

Crying! God has something very special in mind for your little man! How amazing He chose you to have front row seats! God is so good, all the time!!! Thanks so much for sharing!

Beth said...

Thank you for sharing your story. I first started on your other site that had pictures of Bao'an. I am adopting a little boy who just turned 6 from Bao'an. I think that Shawn may be in one of the pictures on the Spring newsletter of Sunshine academy with my son who's English name at school is Bobby.
It was so good to see pictures of the facility as I can better picture where my son has been for almost his whole life. I can't wait until I can be there to see it all in person. Thanks again for sharing!

anything but LoKEY said...

So, I had to come stalk your blog after reading your post on WAGI. And wow, your little guys story is very similar to ours. Our son has been home a year and a half with a special need that was very risky. I know he was over looked because of the unknowns. But he too, is a walking miracle. We brought him home at age 6. I so relate to this post! :)